I'm not worried because she chose the fuckbags over me in high school, I'm worried because she keeps choosing the fuckbags that aren't in highschool. Don't you get it? It's not a trend for those guys, that's really them. They're still obsessed with looking cooler than the people that surround them, but now they're going to grociery markets and DMVs. Nobody is trying to out spike you're hair while you're buying milk and laundry detergent you twatbag. goddamnit.

I sit so low in my chair that only god can see me through my window
and although he may be the only other person awake at this hour, I'm still paranoid

You know how deep down inside most people are exactly as you'd think they were the second you saw them?

You're not one of those people, are you.

I've been listening to some terrible music lately. Music that gets stuck in your head. Music that reminds you of things you've done before, and things that never even happened, but you sure wish did. Music that finds your heart and says, "Hey, can I get a better look at that?" Then hollows it out with it's teeth and takes a nap inside. Some really, honestly shitty stuff.

What's more, is that it sticks around even though it's unwanted! When I listened to Death Cab For Cutie earlier today, I did not invite Ben Gibbard to sing "this is when I forget to breath, and all the things I scripted, they sound unfounded" over and over in my head for seven hours. I don't ever remember telling the guys from Electric President that we connected so well they were allowed to have a sleepover in my chest for a week, although I didn't actually tell them they couldn't, not that the jerks asked.

Anyway, with all this crappy music ruining my life lately, I've realized that no matter what you do, love still sucks. There are some things you don't forget, and there are some things you'll never get away from, no matter how much you grow, and putting my head in my hand as I heard "Insomnia" brainrepeat for the umpteenth time in 12 hours, I laughed at myself for ever thinking I was over a girl.